mwsy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Low point of my life First day of school. I was half-dead when I woke up and couldn't think at all -_-". Had a plesant surprise today, Kimberly came back!!! Ok, so it's only for 2 moths, but something's better than nothing right? She's the only one left in MG form the group I used tio hang out with in P4, both Christine and Rachel have left. Recess was total hell, I've forgotten the habits of the primary school, and needless to say, it was a mess. Good God. Science Lab! Hehehehehe, was so fun, Esther, Choy Yoke and Me were having fun, fooling around with the water and I turned on the water as a joke when Choy Yoke put the 2 ends of the tubes tigether and the water spurted out, ahahahaha, they got so wet. Got picked on again for that 1 hour of English, grrrrrr... stupid Dorky. Took bus to church for the skit thing, and the bus was so crowded, then these 2 stupid SCGS girls were blocking the exit of the bus, just as they moved, the door closed. -_-" I got so angry, I felt like screaming at them. In the end someone pressed the stop button and luckily the doors opened. Then I kept on flubbing my lines for the skit. It just wasn't fair, they changed my role, making it bigger, and all thjat stress got to me, everything was just piling up. 3 months ago I was happy, Teachers stopped picking at me. Everything was just ducky, I had fun. I was contented. Then about 1 month later, my world just came down on me - hard. I've been bearing with the pressure far too long, and now, I just feel like I can't take it anymore, I feel like there's such a great pressure on my back, weighing me down. And I wish there was somebody out there, someone who would understand me, hear me out, and that person is God. But I feel like it isn't enough. And now, I feel like crying at every little thing, not being able to find a worksheet, not being able to fulfill my role, anything. I think I'm having a breakdown. ~Mel 8:49 p.m. - 2003-06-30 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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