mwsy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Why lord? Just tell me why... You people might not see it, but under my strong shell outside, is a soft, sentimental and emotional person. Today, Mrs Chan didn’t turn up for our art class and Meryl the art rep, was looking high and low for her, when she came back to class, Meryl looked flushed so I went with her in search of Mrs Chan., guess where we found her? The canteen. What the fuck? She was having her breakfast and forgot that she had class and looked surprised to see us. Ermm… weird. Her explanation? “Sorry girls, I looked at the wrong week and thought I had not classes now, so I was eating breakfast.” Kristi also didn’t go to school, she got sent home yesterday as she wasn’t feeling well, yesterday, she has hospitalized for dehydration but I heard after recess, that she’s fine and has gone home. Hmm… Chinese Test, *groan* I left half of the questions blank manz… Sigh, sigh, sigh… Then after computer studies, we were walking back to class and were passing the bench outside the Science Lab where a huge bunch of girls were gathered around, I saw Yoon Sann there and though “Oh no… 2S, just my luck” Just then I saw Yol, for once, she didn’t look happy, just worried, and so were the other girls, I thought it was strange, then I saw the reason. A girl, collapsed on the bench was trying to be revived by Mrs Poh with a paper bag, I tell you it was so surreal… the girl looked deathly pale and even Yol wasn’t smiling for once, suddenly I felt weak, and had an asthma attack, luckily it was a minor one, I didn’t have my inhaler with me. When I got to class, I was shocked confused and felt unwell, but I said nothing, just my luck, we had to do a compre, all I could think of was what I had seen I couldn’t concentrate, in total, I prayed 3 times for that girl, once on the linkway, a second time in class during the compre and the third during our CME test. I felt so sad. Then, I recalled what I had read an old entry from Maggot’s diary yesterday, someone in her class, was suffering form leukemia, someone called Kris. Why is it that God can be so cruel sometimes? I mean, that Kris, at the most can only be 16, she still has her good year ahead of her. Then I also remembered when I was P4, a girl in P6 died, form leukemia I think, I felt so sad, why is it that God is so cruel? That girl that died, Caroline, should have been Sec 3 now, having friends, going out, doing things, but instead, her life was taken away at such a young age. I can’t help but ask why. I have found my faith in God slowly, but surely ebbing since Sept 11, the instant I heard that one plane had crashed into the twin towers, I prayed to God, then minutes later, the news came, and second plane crashed into the other twin tower, I felt so sad. Why, why does God do this things? Life, is it just a passing fad? Is it a plaything to God? Are we merely his toys? And death his way of fun? Why, why… Pray, just pray, that another life won’t be taken away, pray for Kris whoever she is. Just pray. ~Mel 5:09 p.m. - 2003-05-09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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